Benefit Dance

I have some wonderful friends that are helping me raise money to bring our children home. As most of you know that we have now gotten added costs to our adoption that were unexpected after the bankruptcy of our agency. So my friends and family are helping us out by putting on a benefit dance here in Charlottetown PE. Should be a great night. If you are in town and have nothing to do on a winters night come join us in celebrating a night out for a good cause. Hope to see you there!

www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=229482704379&ref=nf

Check this site out as it has all the information about where the dance will be.

Kelly and TJ

Happy Holidays!

I just wanted to say Happy Holidays to all my readers. Sometimes I forget that there are actual people out there reading this blog. I guess I get trapped into my own little world and forget that I'm reaching out to so many of you out there. I know that some of you might not agree with our path to a family but glad that you stop by and read how the journey is going for us. Maybe through our journey you can open your minds to how we are affected by comments like those on the CBC site. My life isn't a scripted reality TV show....it's real life with real feelings. So from my heart I do wish everyone out there a Merry Christmas. Take this time to let the loved ones in your life how much you love them. This is the season to share the joy and peace onto others!

All the best in 2010!

Kelly & TJ

P.E.I. couple waits after adoption agency bailout

A Charlottetown couple will have to wait until next month before they can find out when they might be able to adopt a baby through the adoption agency they helped rescue.

T.J. and Kelly Keenan are among 50 Canadian families who paid an extra $4,000 each as the Imagine Adoption agency restructured and climbed out of bankruptcy so it could resume its international operations.

The Keenans had been working with Imagine for 18 months and had paid $15,000 when the agency went into receivership in July, deflating the hopes of about 400 families across the country in the process of adopting children from overseas.

"It was devastating news to ourselves and our families," Kelly Keenan said.

"We've had some pretty big blows trying to have a child and I don't want to get my hopes up until I know for sure when I see that picture and the write-up of everything about the history of that child to actually then feel 100 per cent that, yeah, we're going to have some kids," Kelly said.

The Keenans have been married six years. After two miscarriages, and considering the long wait times for adopting a child in P.E.I., they decided to try adopting from Ethiopia.

When a restructuring plan was proposed this fall that would have the agency rescued by having clients pay any outstanding balances and an additional $4,000, the Keenans and 250 others pitched in.

Imagine went back to work last month and placed two children from Ethiopia with couples in Saskatchewan.

The Keenans will find out next month how far down the waiting list they now are and how long they might have to wait for their turn to adopt.

Domestic adoptions take longer
Among the options available for couples hoping to adopt, international adoptions can be comparatively quick, but expensive.

Adopting a Canadian child can take six years, longer if the couple wants to adopt an infant.

The international route can cost up $20,000, but the Keenans were told that Imagine could arrange an adoption in less than two years. Approaching 40 years of age, the Keenans opted to go that route.

But it can come with some criticism.

"I know a lot of people feel strongly that if we are Canadian people we should be looking out for Canadian children first," says Tammy MacKinnon of the P.E.I. Adoption Coalition.

MacKinnon has already adopted two children from China and is currently waiting to adopt another from Canada.

"It's not like I'm going to adopt domestically, and, boom, let's have a child, " says MacKinnon. "People don't understand it's a long process in P.E.I."

CBC Interview and Comments....

http://www.cbc.ca/canada/prince-edward-island/story/2009/12/22/pei-adoption-keenan.html#socialcomments

CBC Interview today

I had received a call last week to do a follow up to our adoption story. We agreed and met this morning to do the interview. I can't tell you how nervous I get when you have a camera in your face asking you personal questions...lol I was happy to have done the interview but always uneasy on how people will react when they see us. I still remember the first interview after the the news of the agency going bankrupt. I couldn't believe how some people could be so cruel to our situation. How they felt like they had the right to judge us without knowing all the facts. It just makes me think of the time of the little old lady coming up to me in Sobey's asking me what was wrong with Canadian kids. Do I want to be Angela Jolie and have a trinket on my arm???? Here I thought when this little sweet looking lady approached me that she would be supportive...man was I wrong. Though in the same breath we have had so many supporters that we didn't even know we had. Without them we might have not been able to get through all of this. Not be mention all of you supporters out there in our cyber world standing by us and helping us along the way. So I just want to say THANK YOU! It's means so much to TJ and I that we have your support.

Good News!

Imagine received their Ontario Ministry License renewal early this week. They have further received word today that their NGO license renewal in Ethiopia has been approved! They are also very excited to inform us that they have been able to commence the process of referrals once again!!!! There was two referrals as of yesterday. One family have siblings under the age of 3 and the other a daughter of the age of 4. I'm so happy for the families. What a Christmas present!

I look forward to hearing more stories soon of those who get a referral in the new year!

Happy but still uneasy...

I got an email today stating that Imagine Adoption will continue running. They had 246 families paid the additional cost to keep the agency open, so this means that we are in the clear till March. That is when we find out if the families will pay the second installment that is due to continue keeping the doors open. I'm happy to hear that we are over the first hurdle but uneasy till I hear referrals coming in. I want to see where I'm at on the master list of things. I thought I would be jumping for joy today with this news but I'm still feeling uneasy of the whole thing. It's almost like I'm waiting for the BUT moment. I don't want my heart to be broken again...and I'm not sure if I'm ready to open it up fully to news we got today. I'm scared to let it sink in. Maybe in time it will creep in there.

Our Annual Christmas Party

Had our annual Christmas party last night. It was very much needed after all this waiting in our adoption world. I'm glad for one night I could just let the hair down and have a good time.

When will the sadness go away....

It's so hard to believe that this year has had so mixed emotions for me. I was so excited over the thought of adopting a child and finally having the family that we've always wanted. I finally let my heart believe that we were going to have all our dreams come true. To only find out that our dream of a family was over this summer.

I loved the thought of some many people faught to keep the dream alive and are trying to get the agency up and running again. I so want to believe that it will really happen...I just can't till I know for sure that there will be enough people pay the retainer to keep the agency going. My heart can't take another blow right now. I just find myself crying all the time and I can't stop. If this doesn't go through we aren't going to have our happy ending.

I don't need to hear oh don't worry it will happen crap right now. The deal is people that all of our money is invested in this. By the time we pay off this failed adoption it will be too late for us to have a family. That's just reality....as hard as it is I have to accept it. That is what makes me so sad. I have no control over my future....and I don't know if I will ever get over this if we don't hear good news after Nov 30th.

Trying to keep the hope alive...

I'm finding it hard to feel excitment on our adoption. I know that things have been moving forward for Imagine though I can't help but feel that it seems to be taking forever. I just want to know when I will have my child(ren) in my arms. When I started this whole process in Feb 2008 I never thought that my path would take us this way. I can't tell you all about the issues that we came across to why we've been taking us to this point but those of you who do know of our situation can understand how we lost our excitment over this adoption. As I was happy to hear that our adoption will keep going forward...I just didn't take in mind how hard this added wait time will affect us. I know deep down that it's better then no adoption at all...it's just hard to accept right now. I don't want to be ungrateful for all those who have worked so hard on getting this agency up and running again. I can't tell you how grateful for those who have opened the door for our adoption to go forward becasue of you our dreams of a family will come true. I don't ever want to take away from that. I just feel that at this point in time I've lost my excitment over the process....am I wrong for feeling this way? I just want that excitment back in my life again.

I'm doing my happy dance!!!!!!!!

I just got word that the proposal was approved!!!!!! I can't tell you how happy we are right now. If you could only see me trying to type this dancing in my seat...lol

Our dreams are going to come true after all!!!!!!! Whoooo Hooooo!

So far it's looking up.

The proposal came out and it looks like we are up to a vote to see if our agency will come out of debt. Once the voting is done we will have a better picture if I can do my happy dance. I'm still uneasy about the whole thing but there looks to be a small glimmer of hope coming. Keep sending your good vibes my way!

Kell

Hoping for good news.

I have gotten word that we should hear some news tomorrow on the proposal on bringing Imagine back to life. I've always thought of myself as someone that could with stand anything that could be thrown my way till July 14/09. Since this day my nervous have been shot. No one really understands how hard this summer has been on us except for those who are going through this with us. I don't feel like I have that lust for life as I once had. Once I had seen 2 babies come home from our agency I got so excited inside that I shared our news of adoption with everyone. You couldn't get the smile off my face as I told the story of us adopting a children from Ethiopia. When I talk about the possibility of our adoption it has great sadness in my heart. Even if we get good news tomorrow I don't think I will every really believe it until someone comes home with their child.

Message from Cillia

Hi families!

We're happy to share that we've confirmed with Susan Taves of BDO that
everything is still a go for the plan to be presented on their website tomorrow.
The inspectors are just in the process of one final review and sign off.

Regards,
Cilla
FIA Internal Comms committee

Thanks,
Cilla

Restructuring Plan Update

Hello Families of Imagine Adoption,

I am happy to inform you that the restructuring plan will be ready to present to you in a week or so. Following that, BDO Dunwoody will be informing us of the specifics on voting procedures. We are absolutely thrilled with this news as it represents a major step towards bringing the agency out of bankruptcy, resuming operations and beginning the process of bringing our children home.

Before you are presented with the restructuring plan and asked to vote on it, the plan will be submitted for review to both the Board of Directors, as appointed in the proposed restructuring plan, and the inspectors that have been appointed by the creditors. Three members of the FIA Steering Committee were invited by the restructuring group to be on the Board of Directors. As an appointed member of the Board of Directors I will be reviewing the restructuring plan in the coming days. In addition to strong representation by adopting and adoptive families, the board is also made up of individuals with strong business administration and financial backgrounds. The Board of Directors will also have access to an Advisory Board consisting of individuals with strong operational and legal expertise in the area of international adoption.

The review process itself will only take a few days and then BDO will proceed with the process of sharing the plan with you and organizing the voting procedures. Hopefully at that time the trustee will also be able to provide some indication of how long it will take to gain Ministry approval and submit the plan to the courts should creditors approve the restructuring plans.

Once the proposal is presented to you, members of the FIA committees have committed, in collaboration with the trustee, to be available to answer all the questions and concerns you might have about the plan and the voting process.

I have great confidence in the group of people that have created the proposed restructuring plan. I believe that once you see the plan you too will share this confidence and that we can move forward as a united group of families to accept the plan and begin the important next steps.

I wish you all a great weekend as we prepare for an exciting and hope filled week ahead.

With warm regards,

Christine Starr
Posted by United Families of

There might be some hope....

FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE

FAMILIES OF IMAGINE ADOPTION UNANIMOUSLY VOTE TO SAVE AGENCY FROM BANKRUPTCY

(KITCHENER) July 30 – Families impacted by the recent bankrupcty of Imagine Adoption voted today at the first creditors' meeting held in Kitchener-Waterloo to work with the bankruptcy trustee BDO Dunwoody to present a proposal to rescue the agency from bankruptcy. Work on the proposal should be completed within the next two to four weeks.
I f the proposal is accepted by the court, the restructured agency will continue to work to complete the adoptions of families registered with the agency prior to the bankruptcy.

"What a moving moment it was to see all 189 people present vote in favour of working towards taking the agency out of bankruptcy," says Christine Starr, chair of Families of Imagine Adoption, a group which has been working to achieve completion of all the adoptions registered with Imagine. "But this is just a first step towards the completion of all files. There is much more work to be done."

Still no answers...

I have no news to tell anyone about our adoption. We still don't know if it's still going to happen or not. I'm hoping to find out more infromation on friday. We like most adopting parents are getting fusturated with all the waiting. I just want to know either way. I just feel like the gov't is slowly ripping the band aid off and all I want is a clean rip off. If it's a go then tell me, if it's a no then TELL ME!

Another hard night.....

It seems that I'm doing okay then the next min I'm crying all over again. I know that there's been so much done in the last few weeks....and I'm really trying to keep positive about it. I just can't seem to tell my heart that is in so much pain that there will be a good outcome to this. I have to walk by the room I started for our children and wonder WHEN are they coming!!!!

I'm so sick of hearing "everything happens for a reason".....What the hell?????? What is the reason why we all have to go through this?? I can't seem to understand why.....why the hell anyone would do this to a living soul.

I just don't understand how people in this world can be so cruel.....how could Imagine let this happen to so many of us. How can they play with people’s lives like this?

Hallelujah....

I love this song....and this version is so nice.

Finally something that made me laugh!

Finding it hard to keep positive.....

I'm trying to keep my faith that something good will come of this but I'm finding it harder and harder as the days keep passing. There are so many people out there that have no idea about adoption let alone internationally adoption. I seem to be defending why we made our choice of international over domestic more these days. I just wish that I could play a recording of our answer so I don't have to keep repeating myself over and over again. This situation doesn't just affect TJ & I...it affects our mothers, sisters, brother, nieces, friends and the list goes on.

How do you think it was to tell our mothers the children we hoped to be their grandchildren might never come??? How can you tell my heart that the dream of having a family one day might never come????? How do I get over the guilt that is my entire fault for not being able to have children???

So tell me how to be positive during this time....because today I can't seem to see pass the darkness that I'm in.

Please Sign Petition to help save our dream of a family!

http://www.ipetitions.com/petition/SaveOurDreamofAdoptingInternatio/

'I just want my kids,' says client of bankrupt adoption agency

'I just want my kids,' says client of bankrupt adoption agency

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More information.

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Kelly

Globe and Mail - Adoption agency's bankruptcy devastates families

This sums up our situation.

http://www.theglobeandmail.com/news/national/adoption-agencys-bankruptcy-devastates-families/article1217223/

Some dreams don't come true.

Hi Everyone,



TJ and I wanted to let all of you know that our adoption process for Ethiopia is now over. We were informed that our agency has just filed for Bankruptcy. We don't see that we will regain our money that we have paid for the process. We are not sure of what the future holds for us as we invested all of our funds into this adoption. We are completely devastated right now. We wanted you to know what has taken place but ask if you could let us contact you about this matter as it's going to be a very raw conversation for us at this time. TJ and I need time to grieve the loss of a dream of a family we wished for.



Thank you,



Kelly and TJ

Feels like Home!

Lyrics | Edwina Hayes - Feels Like Home lyrics

Happy Canada Day!!!!

Mom is moving next door!!!!!

It's offical my mother sold her house and is now going to break grown on Aug 1st. Not to mention this will lead to free babysitting...hee hee.

Enjoying the deck!

Funny Friday!

A business man got on an elevator. When he entered, there was a blonde already inside who greeted him with a bright, “T-G-I-F.”

He smiled at her and replied, “S-H-I-T.”

She looked puzzled and repeated, “T-G-I-F,” more slowly.

He again answered, “S-H-I-T.”

The blonde was trying to keep it friendly, so she smiled her biggest smile, and said as sweetly as possibly, “T-G-I-F.”

The man smiled back to her and once again, “S-H-I-T.”

The exasperated blonde finally decided to explain.

‘T-G-I-F’ means ‘Thank Goodness It’s Friday.’ Get it, duuhhh?”

The man answered, “‘S-H-I-T’ means ‘Sorry, Honey, It’s Thursday.’”

I love my new Patio set!

My family gave me money for my B'Day and I decided to get new patio furniture this year. We also got a new gazebo and even put out a tv to watch. It's like another living room outside now. I can't wait to put my feet up out there this weekend!

Thanks Mom!

I just wanted to thank you for the 4 pair of crocks! That means four more children with shoes!! YAh momma! That brings my total to 52 pairs of shoes so far!!!!! Keep them coming guys!

Funny Friday!

A hillbilly family took a vacation to New York City. One day, the father took his son into a large building. They were amazed by everything they saw, especially the elevator at one end of the lobby. The boy asked, "What's this, Paw?"

The father responded, "Son, I have never seen anything like this in my life. I don't know what it is!"

While the boy and his father were watching in wide-eyed astonishment, an old lady in a wheelchair rolled up to the moving walls and pressed a button. The walls opened and the lady rolled between them into a small room. The walls closed and the boy and his father watched small circles of lights above the walls light up. They continued to watch the circles light up in the reverse direction. The walls opened again, and a voluptuous twenty-four-year old woman stepped out.

The father turned to his son and said, "Go get your maw!"

Wordless Wednesday

Funny Friday!

Recently, a large corporation hired several cannibals to increase their diversity. "You
are all part of our team now," said the Human Resources rep during the welcome briefing. "You get all the usual benefits and you can go to the cafeteria for something to eat, but please don't eat any employees."

The cannibals promised they would not. Four weeks later their boss remarked,
"You're all working very hard and I'm satisfied with your work. We have
noticed a marked INCREASE in the whole company's performance. However, one of
our secretaries has disappeared. Do any of you know what happened to
her?"

The cannibals all shook their heads no. After the boss left, the leader of
the cannibals said to the others, "Which one of you idiots ate the
secretary?" A hand rose hesitantly. "You fool!" the leader
continued. "For four weeks we've been eating managers and no one
noticed anything. But NOOOooo, you had to go and eat someone who actually
does something."

Wordless Wednesday.

Congratulations!

Just wanted to say congratulations to Deanna, Calvin and Kami. They arrived home tonight with thier daughter Clara. She's such a beautiful baby. I wish you guys all the best. I can't wait to hear about your trip.

Blahhhhh

Have you ever felt just blah somedays. I think I could cry at the drop of a dime lately. My birthday is coming up on Thursday and all I can think is that I'm another year older and still not a mom. I'm tired of everyone telling oh it will happen don't worry. I know in my head that it will, my heart isn't feeling it right now. I'm trying to find ways to keep myself busy to keep my mind off things but it never last. I just want my family that I've always wanted but I'm getting tired of wishing for it every birthday.

Welcome Home!

Just wanted to say Congratulations to Sarah and Jamie. They arrived home with thier son on Saturday night. I can't wait to hear about your trip to your son.

Thank you!

I got a few more donations for my shoe collection!!!! I have 46 in total now.

Too cute!

Wow so many poeple!

I was reading another blog and they gave a shoot out to those who have visited her blog. She didn't realize how many people pass by till she put up a counter to track it. I have a tracker but haven't really realized how many people have been tracked each day till now. I was surprised that my blog from Prince Edward Island, Canada was being seen so much. So I too wanted to thank everyone stopping by. Drop a note any time. I would love to hear from you.

Note to God

GRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!

I love talkng to people about our journey but it seems there's always one out there that says the stupidest things. I try to not let it get to me but I found it very hard today. I was in Sobey's getting some geroceries when I ran into an old school mate. She went on and on about her life and her kids. She decided to ask me if I had any children of my own. Once I stated that we were adopting from Ethiopia I could see her face turn. She asked me why don't you just have your own children. WTF!!!!!! Just becuase I will not get the chance to shoot out one myself doesn't mean that my children are not my own! It took everything in me not to scream this at her. Some people can be so insensitive. Come on people do you not think that dealing with infertility for the past 7 years has no affect on my emotions? I don't need your pitty or telling me how sorry you are. I'm not half a woman because I can't have children of my own. I'm still the silly girl that shared some classed with you at school. I have not changed who I am as a person...I just changed on how I will expand my family.

Shoes...Shoes.....Shoes!!!!

I was able to collect 18 pairs of shoes today from dontions I got from two co-workers. It's a start to my collection! Thanks for your help Natalie and Maurice!

Happy Mothers Day!

To My Mother
For all the times you gently picked me up,
When I fell down,
For all the times you tied my shoes
And tucked me into bed,
Or needed something
But put me first instead.
For everything we shared,
The dreams, the laughter,
And the tears,
I love you with a "Special Love"
That deepens every year.

Author Unknown

Thanks for everything Mom, I love you!

Thank you!

Today I was cleaning the house and I heard a knock at the door. I was surprised to see that there was a delivery guy giving me flowers. It wasn't my birthday yet so why was I getting flowers? To my surprise they were flowers from my mother-in-law. I was taken back because the card said Happy Mother's day Love Mumsie. It was nice to know that someone was thinking of me on this day....knowing how hard each year it goes by hurting so much.

Thank you for the flowers! It meant more to me then you will ever know.

Kelly

In Need of Shoes!

After watching the video that I have posted below has pulled on my heart to actually do something. I have asked all my friends and family to help me out in filling this suitcase with shoes for the orphans in Ehtiopia. I have already had people wanting to donate so I'm hoping that it won't take long to fill. I will keep you updated as the shoes come in!

T-Shirts!

Since there has been a few people that like my T-shirt my dear husband said that he could get some made for you guys if you want them. Any takers? I think he even has a design for China as well if anyone knows someone adopting from there. Let me know if you would like one!

I’ve decided to start collecting shoes to take to Ethiopia after seeing this video. If you want to know how to help out please contact me via email.

Got a New T-Shirt!

I was wanting to get one of Lisa's T-Shirts but it seems that there are no orders going through anytime soon. I had mentioned it to TJ how disappointed I was and he decided to make one for me. I was so excited when I seen the package in the mailbox. I have such an amazing husband! Thanks babe it sure made my day!

What a night!

TJ and I rushed to the airport this evening to see Jill, Trevor and Aliah come home from Ethiopia. It was a memorable event! I don’t think you could wipe the smile off of their faces as they arrived through the gate. I looked around in the crowed there were tears of joy in everyone’s eyes. There were lots of hugs and congratulations going around. It was nice to see that so many people wanted to come out to share this moment with Jill and Trevor. Congratulation guys! We are so happy for you guys.


I also have to say that we got to see a picture of Carolyn and Adam's little boy. Let's just say that he will be a heartbreaker when he gets older. Jill and Trevor got to see him when they were in Ethiopia and got to take a few pictures of him to take back to Carolyn and Adam. It's hard to believe how much they grow from picture to picture. I can't wait for the day we welcome Nathan home!

For many months I've been in suck a rut due to all the issues we've had to deal with our process but after tonight I can say that I've let go of the anger. I know we will be parents and it might take us longer to get there then most but either way we will get there.

Picking up a few things....

Since I had the day off today I decided to go and check out some things at snuggle bugs and sears. I must say that I did find it totally overwhelming. I have not idea of what I should actually need for a baby...lol I just want to get things that we would need not the novelty things till the child(ren) are home. I find the prices go from a avg price to over the top. When you look at things it's hard to know what you should be looking out for. If anyone could help guide me in the right direction please feel free to let me know.

I did happen to pick up a stuff lamb with a blanket for the room. I wanted to use the lambs as the themes but it looks like the family think I should do something different...lol I got two now just in case they try to buy something else. I really don't have a theme idea other then a neutral setting as we have no idea of the sex. Wish me luck!

Baby Nursery

I've been thinking of starting the nursery but wonder if I'm jumping the gun on this. I just feel like I have to be doing something. Since we don't know what sex the children will be I'm thinking of doing something unisex. I thought that I could pick up a few things from time to time when things are on sale. I'm I crazy to even be thinking about this? I just want to feel some sort of connection to them. I may not be able to have them in my arms or even see thier faces but I need to feel that in some sort of strange way that they know I'm thinking of them. That I love them even without knowing them. Maybe I'm just having one of those mornings...I don't know.

Another Ethiopian baby coming to PEI.

I'm so excited to say that there have been now four referrals from Ethiopia. Our friends J&T are coming home soon with thier little girl. This will be the first child from Ethiopia that has been adopted from PEI. They have sure paved the way for the rest of us. Soon there will be travel plans for our other adoption friends D&C and S&J. I can't wait to be cheering for them when they land home. We also just got word that our friends C&A just got a referral for a baby boy! I've talked to C many times about this journey and she has turly understand how this rollercoaster ride can break you at points. She's been a huge supporter for all of us and I can't say enough how grateful I am for her support along the way. I can't wait for her to have her son in her arms. Congratulations to all the PEI families that have now gotten their referrals! TJ and I wish you guys all the best!

Nothing new...

We are still waiting for a referral and have only heard that siblings are getting harder and harder to get unless we up the ages again. We are still going to stick it out but think that either way this might be the only time we do this. It's a rollercoaster ride that I'm not sure I would ever want to do again. I know once I have a child in my arms I might think differently. But until then I might just say this will be it.

Crying over a Pampers commercial?

I've been an emotional wreck today. I was watching TV and a Pamper’s commercial came on and the tears started to flow. I've been crying over every little thing it seems. I feel that this journey has drained me emotionally and mentally. I can't seem to understand how I keep going forward. It seems that you go through so many up's and down's along the road. I try to find comfort in knowing that I'm not alone along this journey. There are so many other families out there that are going through the same thing as we are. I find that reading other blogs helps ease the pain and give me hope for the future. As I know I will soon be talking about our children in our lives rather then the pitfalls of the process to get them. Our lives will change for sure when they arrive and it will make the wait so well worth it.

Tag

SCATTERGORIES. ...it's harder than it looks! Hit Forward, erase my answers, enter yours, send it on to 10 people including the one that sent this to you.

Use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following. They have to be real places, names, things.. Nothing made up!

Try to use different answers if the person in front of you had the same 1st initial. You CAN'T use your name for the boy/girl name question.

WHAT IS YOUR NAME: Kelly
BOY NAME Kevin
4 LETTER WORD: King
GIRL NAME: Katie
OCCUPATION: Knight
A COLOUR: kelly green
SOMETHING YOU WEAR: knee socks
BEVERAGE: kahlua
FOOD: Kiwi
SOMETHING FOUND IN A BATHROOM: kleenex
AN ANIMAL: kangaroo
REASON FOR BEING LATE: kite hit me in the eye
SOMETHING YOU SHOUT: Killer!
-its harder than you think!!

I'm a little bit skinnier!

I forgot to post on Friday if I lost or gained this week. I've lost another 1.6 pounds last week. That makes 5 for the month so far and 7.6 in total! It's coming off gradulaty and steady.

Am I ever going to be a mother?????

I'm so sick of all the delays that I have to endure with this process. It just seems when you make some head way you are hit with another hurtle. I just wish that sometimes you could deal with the agency yourself and not have your province involved till the end. I know that it would make our lives much easier. I don't really understand how someone could use their powers to hold up your adoption on a dime. It makes me wonder if this is the path we should be taking to have the family we want.

Lost weight!

I found that it was hard this past week to stay on track of eating right. Though it didn't help that my co-workers that are doing this challenge call me up all week telling me that MacDonald's had a deal on their hamburgers...lol Even still I lost one pound. That makes a total of 3.6 pounds this month! That only leaves 1.4 pounds to lose the remainder of this month to meet my monthly goal. I'm going to get back into my skinny jeans sooner or later...lol Wish me luck!

Who's the Biggest Loser!

Since it seems that we won't be seeing a refferal anytime soon I had to come up with something that will keep my mind off of things. So I have started Who's the Biggest Looser at work. We decided to have a long term goal and break it down in shorter term goals. We have already finished one month already and I did't meet my goal I still lost a few pounds. ( I went to Mexico and the drinking didn't help...lol) We have each of us pay $2 each weigh in and who ever looses the most in percentage they win the pot for the month or leave the money in and see who will win the total amount in March. We decided to do the Challenge every three months so no one gets demotivated. I hope to reach my goal weight by Oct of this year. Let's keep our fingers crossed!

Having pity in their eyes.......

.....is more then I can bare. When I ask a friend to listen to me vent about how this process is taking a toll on me don't give me the pity look. As I was sitting there letting my feeling out I could see the face coming and it killed me. I should have know that talking to a friend that has no idea what I'm going through would lead to this. I love her for listening and wanting to help, but sometimes things come out of her mouth that you think to yourself WTF? I almost felt that I was talking to a very bad shrink. Sometimes I wish that there was a support group for friends that are dealing with woman that are adopting. Just so they know what to say and not say. I love my friends to death and I wish they could understand how hard this is for me. I know that finding the right words to say can be hard. You don't always have to say something wise just being there is enough.

My Mom's Birthday today!

I took my mom today to brunch to celebrate her birthday. It was just the two of us since TJ is in Vancouver for work. We had a lovely chat but I soon realized that how much this process is affecting her. I guess I have never looked at it from her point of view till today. She asked me today if I have heard anything form the agency towards more of a time line when we will have our children. As I told her that there are many delays and it seems that time lines are getting longer and longer. That basically I had no answers for her. She looked down in her coffee mug and said that it just doens't seem fair. All she wants is to be a grandmother and could only imagine how hard this must be for me. I guess I forgot how much our families are looking forward to the arrival of our children just as much as we are. The waiting for them is just as long as it is for me. I wish that I had words of wisdom to comfort the wait for all of us....I just don't. All I can say that our dream of becoming parents will happen one way or another. I truly believe that.

My Trip to Mexico!

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Mexico!!!

Gone to Mexico will be back next Wednesday!

Worth watching....an amazing man.

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As sad as this might sound...but I'm jealous over a 14 year old girl.

I walked into a salon today to talk to my clients but was taken back by the sight of this 14 year old girl sitting beside me. She was talking on the phone to her friend telling her how cool it was going to be when she had her baby. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. She's just a baby having a baby! She just kept telling her friend that she wanted the top of the line of this and top of that for her baby. That she was going to be the cool mom. Cool???? You are 14 years old having a baby. What's cool about this? I just got so upset sitting there that I had to tell my client that I would be back in a few mins to see her so I could cool off. I went out side and had a power cry in my car before heading back inside. As I sat there I couldn't believe how upsetting it was for me. I was jealous over a 14 year old girl's situation. What is fair in this situation? Please someone explain this to me.

New Year Day Storm

Happy New Year!