It seems that I'm doing okay then the next min I'm crying all over again. I know that there's been so much done in the last few weeks....and I'm really trying to keep positive about it. I just can't seem to tell my heart that is in so much pain that there will be a good outcome to this. I have to walk by the room I started for our children and wonder WHEN are they coming!!!!
I'm so sick of hearing "everything happens for a reason".....What the hell?????? What is the reason why we all have to go through this?? I can't seem to understand why.....why the hell anyone would do this to a living soul.
I just don't understand how people in this world can be so cruel.....how could Imagine let this happen to so many of us. How can they play with people’s lives like this?
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4 comments:
Kelly,
I feel the same way, some days are better than others. I am hoping that the meeting on Tuesday is positive and that Thursday some answers will come. Hang in there, we will make it through somehow.
Kelly, I can't even say that I know what you are going through. Honestly I wish I had something to say that could help. I do think things happen for a reason but this time that reason is on the wrong side of the situation. To the agency that went bankrupt it made sence to them to do what they did. What doesn't make sence is the thousands of dollars and hours of time that were placed into their hands by hopeful couples waiting for their children to come home. What doesn't make sence is that there still isn't an answer to what should happen for those waiting couples that have invested so much time. I agree with you that the statment "things happen for a reason" should not be used in this situation. There is NO reason for this to have happened to anybody and I am sorry. I had also spent countless hours looking longingly into the rooms, stealing a glance at baby/ toddler clothes on racks and shelves, buying needed child items and investing so much time into the future of having children. The difference is, is that I dont know how it feels to have those dreams put so quickly on hold without a reason. I can't know how you feel but I respect how you feel and know that you are justified in it. You should be allowed to question and be angry, wonder and shout out in tears. I wish I could help you both in some way...is there anything that we can do to help?
There is really nothing I can say right now that will help. I do not know why terrible things happen to good people. I wish I could take your pain away right now. Please let me know if there is anything that I can do to help.
Carolyn
I can relate totally, Kelly. If one more person tells me 'this was all God's plan', or 'things happen like this for a reason, and there's sure to be something good to come of it' I may kick them in the ass right there. Not to offend anyone, I am not a religious person and I don't want to hear about anyone's plan, as so far, the plan has not worked out so well for me. You would not say that to a woman who suffered a miscarriage, and that is how I feel right now. I agree, there is no reason for this. My husband says it would be easier to take if they had squandered our business investment, but knowing that they knowingly spent all our money on frivoulous things, all the while, completely aware there were families and children who would pay for there greed, well...it is unfathomable.
So, we cry. We are sad. What else can we do but support each other. Just know I am crying right along with you. I felt like an idiot yesterday when I saw the sweetest little bikini in a store and I briefly thought, 'oh, I should buy that and put it away for our little girl'. Then I burst into tears in the store and these greek people were all staring at the crazy foreigner. Whatever!
I'm here for you when you want to vent. I'll echo yuor sentiments!
(HUG)
Claire
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