Yes this is right I'm having a Sex in the City theme Birthday party! I can't wait! We are going to be going to Tink & Ginger to get our hair done first then the Limos will arriave to take us to and from the movie. We are all getting dressed up in the sex in the city style because aftewards we are heading out to have Cosmo's! We are getting a local resturant on Victoria row to open up for us to have a cosmo night. We were thinking about going to 42nd street but we will have to large of a crowd for them to handle us. It's okay as we know the new place has good staff and they make really good martinis. I will have to keep you posted on picture!
May 22, 2008
I was watching a recording of Ophra this evening about OCD. During this show they asked one of the group members if she cried much. The lady member said that she does but not offen. That she trys to stay strong infront of others. The doctor stated that when most people cry is when they feel safe. Safe enough to let everything drop. At that moment I felt that I had the Ahha moment. I have asked myself why I cry so much now. I'm always the one that everyone cried on or was the joker to say that the it's only a movie not real life. Now I realized that I wasn't allowing myself to feel so I could protective of myself from being hurt by others. I wasn't really living my life to the fullest. Now it seems that I can cry on a drop of a dime....lol I have always wondered why now I could do this but not before. Now I get it...I feel safe! Now I can finally stop saying it's the drugs....lol
May 12, 2008
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May 6, 2008
Our social worker came to visit our home this evening to do our last visit. I thought she would be checking our our house but she just sat in our living room the whole time. I did end up taking her on a tour as we had put so much into cleaning it...lol She asked a few questions that she asked previously but must have forgotten our answers, but she just explained to us again that she feels that we had nothing in her mind to stop us to adopt 2 children. She did say that our home was small and it was clear that we were out growing it. I asked her would be judged on this house for adopting 2 children and she put my mind at ease and said no. She knows that we are looking at building next spring and will pass that in her report to social services. Over all it looks like it might be another month before we get to meet with Social Services about our adoption plans....that part sucks but at least we are still moving forward.
May 4, 2008
For some reason I'm so nervous of the social worker coming to our house to see it. As most of you know that we are going to be moving next year due to not having enough space for little ones. I'm scared that we will be judged on our home that we have now and that will effect if we have two children or not. Everyone keeps telling me not to worry, but it's hard not to. I guess I'm really starting to let it sink in that we are really adopting. I know that might sound a bit off for some but it was almost like I started this journey with a wall up to protect myself in case we didnt get approved to adopt. As we have had so many blows trying to get pregnant that it's hard to let that wall fully down. Little by little it's coming down with the support we have recieved from family and friends. The excitment that everyone is showing for us is amazing. I couldn't ask for a more supportive bunch to have in our life. I guess now I just have to fall back on them and let them help me get through this process. As the old saying is: Take one day at a time!