Ahha moment....

I was watching a recording of Ophra this evening about OCD. During this show they asked one of the group members if she cried much. The lady member said that she does but not offen. That she trys to stay strong infront of others. The doctor stated that when most people cry is when they feel safe. Safe enough to let everything drop. At that moment I felt that I had the Ahha moment. I have asked myself why I cry so much now. I'm always the one that everyone cried on or was the joker to say that the it's only a movie not real life. Now I realized that I wasn't allowing myself to feel so I could protective of myself from being hurt by others. I wasn't really living my life to the fullest. Now it seems that I can cry on a drop of a dime....lol I have always wondered why now I could do this but not before. Now I get it...I feel safe! Now I can finally stop saying it's the drugs....lol