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Aug 16, 2010

still crying myself to sleep

I'm tired. I'm sad. I feel broken. I just want to feel whole again.

Why is life so hard?

Aug 13, 2010

How long can I dream of you?

How I long for that moment to hold our child for the first time. How I would love to hear those special words...I love you mommy. How I long to put them to sleep. How I long to wipe their tears away. How I long to just have you in my arms. How I love this faceless child in my heart and we have yet to meet.

How I never want to wake up dreaming of you but how long can I wait for our dream to come true. How long do we have to dream of you before you become more then just a dream. How much longer do I have to wait.....

I can't help but think that maybe we've waited long enough and it's time to let go of our dream of you. How we've wanted this dream to come true. I wonder if it's going to be just what it is.....a dream. Maybe it's time to just wake up and learn to dream of something other then you?

Our Timeline

First Adoption

Started the process in Jan/11
Home study approval Mar/11
DTC May 16. 2011
LID June 1, 2011
Referral July 26, 2011
Sent letter of Intent July 28, 2011
PA Aug 4 , 2011
LOA 119 Days....Nov 28, 2011
TA Dec 20, 2011
January we're Parents!

Second Adoption

Started Process Feb/13
Provincial Approval April 26/13

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