Tired

I've been locked in my room for most of the holidays due to a cold. Deep down I feel that it's been my excuse to hide from everyone right now. I just feel tired and beaten down. This time of year should be full of happiness & cheer and all I feel is sadness. I just want this waiting to be over and have the family that I have always wanted. As each Christmas goes by without my wish coming true it only depresses me even more. As it's only a reminder of what I don't have in my life. With each gathering there's the questions that every waiting mother hates to hear. When are your kids coming? I just try to say something quickly as I make myself to another room in the house. Half the time you feel like you are walking around like a zombie. You can't seem to get away from anything this time of year that keeps reminding you of the children you have been waiting for. It's hard to get over the things our parents come to teach us that dreams come true at christmas time. That all we have to do is be good and make our wish to Santa. As we wake up on Christmas morning we run to the tree to see all our wishes came true. Well Santa I have been a good girl and my wish was the same as the last 6 years. Why aren't my wishes coming true?

Why do men....

I was talking to a male friend of mine tonight and we were talking about how some fathers say they are babysitting their own children. Now why is taking care of your own children while your wife is out is called babysitting??? Now do we pay our husbands to look after their own children now??? lol It was a subject that came up this evening that I thought was funny. What do you think?

Adoption update!

We decided to up the age of the siblings that we will be adopting to the ages of 0-3 yrs. We have heard that it's getting to be a longer wait for children under the age of 2 so we figures we would try to up the age and see if things will speed up for us. We are still thinking the 2 years but will relook at it in a years time.

My new hair!

How to offer support

Seen this on Carolyn's blog but had to post it here for family and friends to understand how I feel.

I saw this on another blog and thought it was great. This is helpful information for family and friends regarding how then support those of us in the adoption process. I know that people do not always know what to say or do, so here are some helpful hints and tips.



Supporting an Adoption

Many times, well-meaning relatives, friends and co-workers do things or make comments that unintentionally cause pre-adoptive and/or adoptive parents unnecessary emotional stress.The following is a quick guide that may be copied and distributed to those people in an effort to educate them on how they can support you during the adoption process.

DO
1. DO accept our decision to adopt without question.
2. DO accept our choice of a child regardless of his/her race, heritage, age, social background, etc.
3. DO remain positive and enthusiastic during waiting periods.
4. DO offer to give practical help if you don't mind giving us your time.
5. DO respect our choice not to disclose details about our personal life and our decisions.

DON'T
1. DON'T tell us that if we adopt a child we will get pregnant and have a child of "our own."
Adoption does not cure infertility, and our adopted child will be "our child."
2. DON'T react as if adoption is a "second best" or "noble" choice.
3. DON'T question our capability or readiness to parent a child.
4. DON'T incessantly ask for news while we are waiting to adopt.
5. DON'T probe for details about the birth parents or the child. We'll tell you whatever we are
comfortable sharing.

Some Tips on How You Can Help us During the Post Adoption

DO
1. DO be happy for our new child and us.
2. DO respect that we may want and need quiet time with our new child to bond and adjust.
3. DO understand that we might not be able to fulfill your needs as quickly as we did before
we became parents.
4. DO respect our style of parenting.

DON'T
1. DON'T feel sorry for our adopted child.
2. DON'T make demands for our attention or our time during our adjustment phase.
3. DON'T criticize the desire to have and maintain a relationship with our child's birthfamily.

For additional helpful suggestions, please read "Supporting An Adoption" by Pat Holmes and/or "When Friends Ask About Adoption" by Linda Bothun.

Still waiting.....to be a mom...

I have no real news to tell anyone about our adoption other then we are still waiting. It seems that we are getting long and longer waiting times. I was talking to my case worker and she tells me that the required ages that we are looking for are harder to find. We can other up the age or try to wait it out with the ages we have requested as long as we can. I'm not really sure what to do. I like many of you who are adopting just want to haver our children here with us now. I just want to me a mom. I don't think that is to much to ask.

Anniversary today.

It's hard to believe that it's been 5 years already! I can still picture how he looked on our wedding day. Sharp as a button standing there looking at me will all that love in his eyes. I was so nervous walking down the isle that I thought I was going to pass out, but once I got to him I was full of excitement. I was about to marry the man of my dreams.

Not in a million years would I ever think that being friends with his sister would lead me to my future husband. Our courtship wasn't the typical courtship that normal couples take. We knew each other for many years but didn't really KNOW each other. When TJ's dad was battling with cancer and his sister was recovering form a head injuring in moncton is when I finally got to meet TJ for who he really was. TJ is a man of great strength and courage.

Through all the tragedy that was going on with his family, whom I loved as my own for many years, was helping me deal with all my grief. I was loosing a man that I have admired all my life, who I've looked up to as a father and was honoured to have been thought of as a daughter. A friend, who now doesn't remember our friendship. TJ stood by my side while others faded away. Little did I know at the time I was helping him though this too.

We stuck by each other side for a year helping each other deal with loss of his father and the new relationship we will now both have with his sister. During this time we fell in love with each other, but not realizing the other felt the same way. As time went on we realized that we were in love with each other. I still remember the words coming out of his mouth.....I love you! It was the happiest moment in my life.....he felt the same way!!!!! It took me a while to have the courage to say them back to him, but once I did he already knew.

The day that he asked me to marry hime was on a magical night....Christmas! Some people say you shouldn't ask someone to marry you on Christmas. I'm glad that he didn't feel the same way. We decided that year to open our gifts to each other on that evening because we would be at home after a busy day of rushing around. I still remember it so clearly. I went up to take a shower to relax and get into my jammies. I came down stairs he had soft music playing and tree glowing. Little did I know what was going to happen next. I opened my gift of a pizza cutter, ice cream scooper, and wine charms....and there it was a diamond ring sparkling at me. At first I didn't see it till I move it to the side saying that they wine charms will be great for the deck next year. A shimmer of light hit the ring and I soon realized what was about to happen. First thing I said was if this is a joke it's not funny....lol He asked me to close my eyes and got a huge bouquet of flowers out from behind the couch and got on one knee. Meanwhile I'm thinking that I'm saying this in my head,"Oh my God he's going to ask me to marry him!", saying this over and over again in my head.....but actually saying it out loud! TJ grabs my hand and say yes Kelly I am! I opened my eyes and he says this poem:

First Kiss

You leaned over and you kissed me
I felt my knees go weak
You leaned over and you kissed me
I couldn't even speak
You leaned over and you kissed me
A touch so soft and tender
You leaned over and you kissed me
A kiss I could remember
You leaned over and you kissed me
You left me wanting more
You leaned over and you kissed me
My soul you did explore
You leaned over and you kissed me
My heart no longer full of pain
You leaned over and you kissed me
Our love will never strain
You leaned over and you kissed me
We can begin a new life if you just say yes....
Kelly, will you be my wife?

I screamed YES!!!!!

Home!

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Pictures of the house.

Getting scared of not getting siblings.....

I've been reading other blogs and seeing that people are changing request from siblings to a single child. That there has been a huge shortage of siblings in the past year. It's made me scared to think that I might have to change our plans on having 2 children. I have grown up in a family of one all my life and have always wanted my future children to have the joys of having a sibling to grow up with. I have my heart set on the fact knowing we will have two little ones running around here. I will hate to think that dream might not come true now. It seems that having t give up on dreams of having a natural child was hard enough to handle and now this! I just don't know if I will have the strenght to go through another loss.

All moved in!

We have finally got settled in our new spot. Takes a while to get use to all the space now. We were living in about 800 sq feet and now are in a house that is about 2000 sq feet. We still come home and ask each other "Where are you?"....lol I promise to get some photo's up soon. We are just trying to work out on what to put on the walls still and once that happens I will post a few pictures.

Moving Update!!!!

It looks like we can move in a few days earlier! It looks like we are allowed to start moving in the weekend and then we are to sign off on the house on Tuedsay!!!!! Yeah!

BBQ @ Carolyn & Adam's

Today we went to a BBQ for the PEI group that is adopting from Ethiopia. We had the pleasure of meeting up with a new couple this time around. Which is always nice to actually meet the people you are blog stocking...lol

It was a beautiful day for a BBQ and was much enjoyed by everyone. Thanks again to Carolyn & Adam for having us over. It was nice to have the chance to hear how everyone is getting along in their journey. There seems to be longer waiting for single and sbilings now. TJ told me on the way home that it would be nice to see someone from PEI have their referral aready. I must say that I have to agree with him.

I will keep my fingers crossed!

Update on house!

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It's been a month since my last post.....wow!

Well a lot has happened in the last month. First off our house is almost done. They expect it to be finished next saturday. We can start moving in a few things next weekend but we will take over the house fulling on Aug 1st. We both took some vacation so we can move in slowly and not be rushed to do it all in one day. With the heat lately it will be a killer to even try to do something like that. We had a few issues that came up but nothing really major. I'm just looking forward to moving into a place of our own.

On the adoption front...we got the provincial approval finally! Our homestudy took 7 months to complete. Yes...not a lie 7 months! We still have to do the photos of our house and family. We wanted to wait till our new house is finished so it will be a better idea of where our children will live. I'm just not sure what they are wanting in a family part...is it just us or our extended family that will be an active role in our childrens lives. If anyone has any information on that it would be great. Either way we are on our way to our children.

Once we are in the new spot we will post more pictures for everyone. Sorry for the long wait in between posts. I will try to keep more on top of things.

B'Day Pictures!!!

Our new home!

It's hard to believe that we are about to be moving into our new home Aug 1. I'm praying that there won't be any delays.

I love the vault ceilings, but it's so hard to find lighting for them. Wish me luck!

Sex in the City Birthday Theme!!!!

Yes this is right I'm having a Sex in the City theme Birthday party! I can't wait! We are going to be going to Tink & Ginger to get our hair done first then the Limos will arriave to take us to and from the movie. We are all getting dressed up in the sex in the city style because aftewards we are heading out to have Cosmo's! We are getting a local resturant on Victoria row to open up for us to have a cosmo night. We were thinking about going to 42nd street but we will have to large of a crowd for them to handle us. It's okay as we know the new place has good staff and they make really good martinis. I will have to keep you posted on picture!

Ahha moment....

I was watching a recording of Ophra this evening about OCD. During this show they asked one of the group members if she cried much. The lady member said that she does but not offen. That she trys to stay strong infront of others. The doctor stated that when most people cry is when they feel safe. Safe enough to let everything drop. At that moment I felt that I had the Ahha moment. I have asked myself why I cry so much now. I'm always the one that everyone cried on or was the joker to say that the it's only a movie not real life. Now I realized that I wasn't allowing myself to feel so I could protective of myself from being hurt by others. I wasn't really living my life to the fullest. Now it seems that I can cry on a drop of a dime....lol I have always wondered why now I could do this but not before. Now I get it...I feel safe! Now I can finally stop saying it's the drugs....lol

Shout out!

Just wanted to say Hi to Ashley! Thanks for keeping up with my blog.

Happy Mother's Day!

I just wanted to say Happy Mother's Day to my mom Colleen and TJ's mom Shirley. I hope you have a wonderful day!

Happy Mother's Day everyone!

Home Inspection completed!

Our social worker came to visit our home this evening to do our last visit. I thought she would be checking our our house but she just sat in our living room the whole time. I did end up taking her on a tour as we had put so much into cleaning it...lol She asked a few questions that she asked previously but must have forgotten our answers, but she just explained to us again that she feels that we had nothing in her mind to stop us to adopt 2 children. She did say that our home was small and it was clear that we were out growing it. I asked her would be judged on this house for adopting 2 children and she put my mind at ease and said no. She knows that we are looking at building next spring and will pass that in her report to social services. Over all it looks like it might be another month before we get to meet with Social Services about our adoption plans....that part sucks but at least we are still moving forward.

Home inspection for Tuesday.

For some reason I'm so nervous of the social worker coming to our house to see it. As most of you know that we are going to be moving next year due to not having enough space for little ones. I'm scared that we will be judged on our home that we have now and that will effect if we have two children or not. Everyone keeps telling me not to worry, but it's hard not to. I guess I'm really starting to let it sink in that we are really adopting. I know that might sound a bit off for some but it was almost like I started this journey with a wall up to protect myself in case we didnt get approved to adopt. As we have had so many blows trying to get pregnant that it's hard to let that wall fully down. Little by little it's coming down with the support we have recieved from family and friends. The excitment that everyone is showing for us is amazing. I couldn't ask for a more supportive bunch to have in our life. I guess now I just have to fall back on them and let them help me get through this process. As the old saying is: Take one day at a time!

I got Tagged!

I got tagged! By Adam and Carolyn Peters...thanks guys...lol

I am: a flirt

I think: that I'm lucky to have married my bestfriend.

I know: that I need another vacation.

I want: to learn how to cook.

I have: to learn how to parrallel park

I wish: that I could have our children with us now.

I hate: that I still have to explain why I'm adopting from Ethiopia.

I miss: my dogs Bruno, Bear Dog, and Missy Girl.

I fear: that I won't be a good mother.

I feel: very happy that I met the group that is adopting from Ehtiopia.

I hear: my co-workers talking shop....boring!

I smell: the lotion that I put on my feet.

I crave: chocolate.

I search: for baby names all the time.

I wonder: how long our process will take before we have our children in our arms.

I regret: not starting our aboption process earlier.

I love: my husband, family and friends....they have been a huge support.

I ache: for standing around all day in heels.

I care: about the people in my life

I always: like having my canned food lined up in a certain way.

I am not: morning person.

I believe: that my husband will be a great father.

I dance: every chance I get...may not be the best dance but I have fun.

I sing: only when I'm alone.

I cry: over commercials

I don't always: go to bed at a good hour.

I fight: for the underdog.

I write: on my blog so friends and family know how we are getting along on our adoption journey.

I win: at who sleeps on what side of the bed.

I lose: my bank card all the time....on number 24 now.

I never: go to bed angry.

I confuse: myself at times.

I listen: to my moms advice...most of the time...lol

I can usually be found: on the couch with the hubby

I am scared of: space

I need: massage

I am happy about: we are moving next May.

YOU ARE TAGGED BY: Adam and Carolyn Peters

Third Meeting with our Social Worker.

We made it through another visit with our Social worker. We found that we will be having our final visit next month!!!!! I can't wait for this to be over and we can keep moving forward. We did happen to get some information from her to where we stand with her. She mentioned that she doesn't see any red flags on our request to adopt so that was very comforting to hear. It's just hard to have someone else be the one in control of the decision if you have children or not. Since couples who have natural children aren't interviewed to say if they could keep them or not. Either way we are glad that this part of the journey is almost over and we can keep moving forward with our adoption. We just want to have our children in our arms already.

Second Meeting with Social Worker.

Our second session seemed to go over well. We had to talked about our childhood, education and jobs. I found it hard to remember dates, but figured I got them close enough. She mostly got information on Tj's life as his family is much larger then mine. She said that she would go over mine on our next meeting as it took so long to get through his. I found that this session I felt more comfortable with our social worker. It's hard telling a stranger all about your life, but she's a very nice lady. Our next session is April 15.

My SUV has fianlly arrived! I get it this saturday as I'm going to be away for a few days for work. I can't wait!!!! Tj calls it my Soccer mom car....now I just need the kids. hee hee!

Starting our home study up again!!!!

It's offical and we are going to be starting our home study up again. All the paper work is done and we will have our second meeting on April 1st. I can't wait to get this going again. TJ and I have both come to the terms that we just want to have our kids alreay. It was nice to have the last few years to ourselves but we long for our family. We are just ready to start a new chapter in our lives. Mind you once they get here we might be going out of our minds...lol, but we are looking forward to it.

Some Pictures

I've added some pictures of our trip to our blog. This is a picture of our hotel. Kelly conquered her fear of heights when she repelled down a cliff side and then took a zip line over a large crater. I think my favorite part was the visit to Coba and swimming in the underground Cenote.

Back from Mexico!

We had an experice for sure when we went on this vacation. To start it all off our flight down there was 7 1/2 hours long. We had to make a stop in Florida due to the wind being so bad. Once we got there we had no idea where the buffet was done but found a snack bar and we ran to get food and the plane ride only had snacks on it. We had a lovely week. We met many people that we hope to keep in touch with. I have to give a shout out to Bill for giving me the cream for the rash I got from the sun. It sure helped. We did get to go to Coba and see the ruins there and I got the chance to swim with the dolphins. I must say my favorite was swimming with the dolphins...it was so amazing! Then it seemed the week was over and we had to head back to the cold here. To our surprise our flight back was worse then our flight to Mexico. We had so many delays that it was unreal. We found out that they were cleaning out the bathrooms and it fluid leaked in the cabin area and the storage area for your luggage. We had to wait till they cleaned it all up but you could still smell the stink. I was glad to be at the front of the plane this time...lol Over all we had a great time.

Snow Day!

What to do on a snow day....well we packed for our trip to go south. I find it hard to pack since you never know what the weather is going to be like. I did the basics swim suit, shorts and t-shirts. It's just the evenings that I wonder what I should wear. I've packed a few dresses but once you start that you need a few different shoes...man it's tough being a woman...lol I won't be missing this weather for sure. I just pray to God that it doesn't storm on the day we leave.

Having a hard time....needing a break.

I love my job, but after being on the road for the last year I'm in need of some time off. I need to get rested up so I can get my head back in the game again. It just seems that the smallest things are getting to me lately and I don't want to bring that to my customers. So I look forward to the time off. I remember how we felt that last time we went down south.....so relaxing! Nothing to worry about other then where will I sit on the beach and where to sit at chow time...lol I felt that I could have anything be shoved at me and I could take it.

Guess we can finally start up again with our home study!!!

I thought I would update our social worker today on where we were in getting the items she needed before we can proceed with our home study. I guess we can keep going even though our medicals won;t be there till the end of march. This is great news! I just want to feel that we are moving forward with our adoption. I will feel much better once our home study is done and get the approval of the province. Once that comes I will start to really feel that this is real. It's hard to explain how we feel but it seems that everyone is so far ahead of us in adopting and we are so early on that it still doen't seem real till I can recieve something in writing that says we are....hope someone gets what I'm saying...lol. I'm not sure if I'm just waiting for the floor to drop out under me again. It seemed that I feel that way every month for the last four years that it's hard to let go of that feeling that something is not going to work out. I so want to keep positive and most of the time I am, it just creeps up on me from time to time. Either way I am happy that we are going to continue with our home study. Just brings us one step closer to our children.

Gathering....

It was so nice to meet a few of the couples that are adopting from Ethiopia. Especially since TJ and I are very early on in our adoption process. It's nice knowing that we are not alone and there's support near by. It seemed when we were looking at adopting from China there weren't many couples our own age, so to see that this group is are more our age. We are going to have children close in age so it will be nice for future gatherings.

Thanks again Jill and Trevor for having us. I look forward to our next gathering!

Things are starting to come together.

We almost got all our paperwork in order. We just have to wait for our doctor appointments and then we can continue with our home study. I can't get over how long it will take for us to get into our doctors. I had to call 5 times to finally hear back from my husbands doctor. I'm just glad that the appointments are made and that things are moving forward and that makes me happy. I just can't get over how long some things take. I guess I will have to get use to it as it's very early on our journey and there will be many bumps along the road.

Update!

I decided to call back again and see if I could get someone eles on the phone. To my luck I did just that....and I will be getting my Notice in 10 business days! YEAH!!!!! I knew if I could get someone else that I might have better luck.

What is with the gov't delays????

I had requested my Notice of assemment from Revenue Canada and it will be 12 weeks before they can send it to me. What the hell??? I do realize that it's a poor time of year but 12 weeks come on. I got so excited to start the home study and now we have to wait till we get this final paper work before we can have our second session. It's already been 23 days since we last seen her and now we might have to wait another 12 weeks...I'm just beside myself. I even explained that we need it right away due to adoption and still I get a lady having a bad day telling me to suck it up pretty much. I could have gone through the phone. It's not my fault that she's having a bad day. I guess I just have to wait it out.

My feelings....

I wish that I will never hear these comments again....

1. You will get pregnant. You just have to relax.
2. Once you get your adopted children you'll get pregnant cause the pressure is off.
3. You just have to do it more if you want to get pregnant.
4. Oh you are still young...it will happen.

Are a few things that I hear over and over again. I know that people aren't saying these things to be heartful, but little do they know how hurtful they are. How I try to figure out just how to make it through that moment. So I put on a smile and just stand there saying nothing. Though sometimes I try to explain that if only that was true, but doesn't seem to matter. Wishing that they could understand how I might feel for once. How we've struggled to get through these past few years. To finally decide to let go of a dream we had for so long. It's not easy letting go and starting a new path. So I say this....just think of how you might feel walking in our shoes before you make a comment like these.

Anyone else sick as me???

I can't believe that I've been sick for the forth time this winter. I so want to feel better. I find that it's hard to be out on the road selling when you are blowing your nose every two mins...lol That's real sexy. Oh well the week is almost done and I can get back to my own bed and rest up the whole weekend.

Vacation Time

It's been over four years now that TJ and I have taken a trip anywhere, so we decided to head south one last time. Once the little ones come along it might be a while before we can take a trip on our own again. It will be nice to have this time with him....just relaxing in the sun. I can almost feel the heat now... hee hee.

Big Surprise

While I was working today TJ called me to come to his office right away. I asked if everything was okay as he didn't seem like himself. He said he was okay and he just wanted to see me as soon as he could. As I was in a meeting and couldn't get out for another 1/2 hour I was dying to know what the problem was. I will say that it was the fastest drive I have ever taken...lol Once I got there TJ asked me to close over the door and sit down. I was getting worried, so worried that I could now feel the lump in my throat throbbing. He tells me that he's mother has decided to give us land over in Kinlock for us to build a house on PLUS...wait for it.....is going to pay for our Adoption!!!!!!!! I just stood there with my mouth on the floor. I couldn't help but cry over the thought of this most amazing gift that she's offering us. Within the same breathe I kept saying that it was too much, but TJ said that he told her the same thing and she wants to do it anyways. So here she's giving us land and paying for our adoption. Wow, what a gift.

Here we have my mother who has offered to look after our children half days to help us out, and now TJ's mother is going to pay for our adoption. I can't explain how greatful we are to our mothers. We are so lucky to have them supporting us during our journey to our family. Words can't explain how much this support means to TJ and I. I just can't say it enough....Thank you!

Why International and not locally???

I'm not sure if all of you are as sick as we are for answering why we have chosen to do international over locally. I know that it's a lack of knowledge on their part and I shouldn't let it get to me. It's just hard not saying what you would really like to answer. I understand that adoption isn't for everyone. I respect their decision, so why don't others respect ours. I don't think that we would be asked why we are adopting if it was locally. Why does it matter where the child came from, but rather that we are taking a child in to our lives. It's not my fault that to adopt from our own country is too hard. Why should I have to wait 8 years to be a mother. Not to mention the last 4 1/2 years that I've already waited. I just want to be a mom and adopting internationally is going to make that happen for me.

I'm glad that we have the support of our family and friends to help us along the way to our children. It helps knowing that there's someone in our corner when we feel that the world is against you. Thanks for being there for us.

Wondering about siblings now...

We had wondered about adopting siblings but we were unsure of the extra cost. Let alone if there are standards we have to meet, so we have put it on the back burner till now. I called Kids Link to see what the cost would be and if there were any standards that we had to meet. I guess it looks like we are okay to adopt siblings as long as our province approves it. I'm not sure what they look for when adopting siblings but hope to find out soon. I have left word that I would like to speak to someone about it, but the government is always so slow getting back to you.

When I spoke to TJ this morning about the cost to my surprise he said that we should go for it. I was so over joyed that he was on board with idea. We are so lucky that we have a huge support from family and friends to help us out. My mother has offered to look after our children half days so they don't have to be in day care for the full day. As many of you know that day care is a huge cost for a family. So I feel very lucky that we are going to have her help. My bestfriend has always told me that he would get our crib for our child. Lucky for us he's parents have lots of kid toys and play pens that they used for his sister's children that just out grown them.

I feel that we are on our way to having the family that we always wanted. I get choked up just thinking about our future. It's been a long journey to making this happen. TJ has said to me that he's just so happy to be moving forward and I would have to say that I feel the same. We have both have felt so stuck for so long that it feel like a huge relief off our shoulders to be getting off the infertility ride and move on with our lives. I can't wait for what the future holds for us.

We meet our Social worker today.

I was surprised that I wasn't nervous as I thought I would have been. As the meeting went on we discussed the usual stuff as how old are you , when were you married, and where do you work...yadda yadda yadda. She then went on to explain the different types of adoption and the positives and negatives of each. One thing that did surprise me is that she said that 50% of the cases she worked on the birthmother decided to keep the baby. That is too high for me. I could not imagine that we would finally be parents to only then loose the baby in the end. I wouldn't be able to handle it. I think that is why I have been drawn to International adoption. We were left to do some homework for her before we can book our next appointment. The basic things an outline of questions of who we are as individuals and about our marriage. Some police checks, reffernce letters and photocopys of our birth certificates that will be passed on to our province for approval. So really nothing major to report just yet, but I will keep you posted.

P.S I love you

I went to this movie this evening and it touched me so much that I had to write about it. I must say that every woman should go to this, but if you do you HAVE to take kleenex with you. It makes you cry so hard and within the same breathe you are busting a gut laughing. It's that good.

As I was sitting there I was thinking of my own marriage and was so thankful that I had that guy! Don't get me wrong I still hate the fact that he can't seem to put the toilet seat down, but he's the "one" for me. I had a rough ride when it comes to men (those who know me know how true this is), but I wouldn't change a thing. It lead me to TJ. As corny as that might seem it's true. I would have never given him a chance if I wasn't ready to find true love. I must say, I'm glad that I was finally ready! It's been a great ride so far.

First meeting with Social worker Cancelled.

Today was to be our first meeting with our social worker but with the snow storm here made it impossible for us to attend. With luck we were able to get a rescheduled appointment for this saturday. It's a little disapppointing that we didn't get in to see her tonight but at least the wait is not going to be long. I will have to pump myself up all over again...lol

On our attempt to drive to our meeting TJ and I had time to reflect on our thoughts of the whole thing. It was nice to have that time to relax and talk about things that we might not have gone over.....even baby names...lol I believe that we'll do well with our home study, as we are so ready to be parents. We know that our lives will change and bring us into a new direction in life but we so look forward to it.