It's been a month since we were told we were going to be a family of three. There hasn't been a day go by that I haven't thought of our little boy. I know that in a few short months we will have him in our arms forever but today has been a hard day knowing that he's so far away. I found myself crying off and on all day long. I think that people must have thought I was crazy in Walmart. I went by the baby section and to only find myself surrounded by mom's with babies every where. I felt like I didn't belong there as our son is still in China. Then came the water works. I soon got what I needed and headed out the door. Maybe it's the wait that is getting to me. I do agree that the referral high does wear off and now I just want to be holding my son.
I love you Reagh.
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7 comments:
Your day is coming sooner than later! I remember what it is like to have the feelings that you have. Keep your eyes on what is waiting for you- your beautiful boy!
Carolyn
I think the after-referral-crash is the worst part yet. I have been feeling pretty crappy too. hang in there!
I think we need a World Class Mom's night out! There is so much to share. We've been where you are and it's so fresh in my mind when I read your posts. It's been almost 6 years since our second adoption - wow! But I remember all the feelings like they were yesterday. And believe me, the comments are still coming, but not so often, and I am ready for them, usually :) You are so close now, I bet you can almost feel him in your arms. It's so tough. Just shows how much you love him. And that's a good thing.
Kathy, mom to beautiful Jane and Lana
Have you decided on sending a care package yet? That seemed to help me during the wait, I even sent two during those four long months. Hoping you will hear about a speedy LOA soon!
Hoping you get him soon! How long does it usually take from referral to travel? With Oksana we didn't get the referral just travel date and even those days would drag on. I totally relate with the walmart baby section though. :) we think of you and check back often. :)
Catherine
It happens to all of us. I've been through the wait (8 months of it with a different country/process) and you have highs and lows.
But in the end the struggle to get to your child is worth it. Just keep remembering that he is happy and being cared for while he waits for you to hold him forever.
Hang in there.
I totally understand. I felt like an outsider in the baby section for several months while we were waiting for our first match, that didn't go through. It was soooooo fun when we finally had Levi and could wander into the baby section feeling so much more legitimate (not that we weren't before, you know what I mean). I think a lot of mom's just take things like that for granted, but you never will. I STILL love taking Levi into the baby/little kid section and it's been almost 16 months! So hang in there. I do totally get what you're saying and soon you will LOVE wandering through the stores with you sweet little guy.
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