Feb 23, 2009
Feb 17, 2009
I'm so sick of all the delays that I have to endure with this process. It just seems when you make some head way you are hit with another hurtle. I just wish that sometimes you could deal with the agency yourself and not have your province involved till the end. I know that it would make our lives much easier. I don't really understand how someone could use their powers to hold up your adoption on a dime. It makes me wonder if this is the path we should be taking to have the family we want.
Feb 15, 2009
I found that it was hard this past week to stay on track of eating right. Though it didn't help that my co-workers that are doing this challenge call me up all week telling me that MacDonald's had a deal on their hamburgers...lol Even still I lost one pound. That makes a total of 3.6 pounds this month! That only leaves 1.4 pounds to lose the remainder of this month to meet my monthly goal. I'm going to get back into my skinny jeans sooner or later...lol Wish me luck!
Feb 7, 2009
Since it seems that we won't be seeing a refferal anytime soon I had to come up with something that will keep my mind off of things. So I have started Who's the Biggest Looser at work. We decided to have a long term goal and break it down in shorter term goals. We have already finished one month already and I did't meet my goal I still lost a few pounds. ( I went to Mexico and the drinking didn't help...lol) We have each of us pay $2 each weigh in and who ever looses the most in percentage they win the pot for the month or leave the money in and see who will win the total amount in March. We decided to do the Challenge every three months so no one gets demotivated. I hope to reach my goal weight by Oct of this year. Let's keep our fingers crossed!
Feb 1, 2009
.....is more then I can bare. When I ask a friend to listen to me vent about how this process is taking a toll on me don't give me the pity look. As I was sitting there letting my feeling out I could see the face coming and it killed me. I should have know that talking to a friend that has no idea what I'm going through would lead to this. I love her for listening and wanting to help, but sometimes things come out of her mouth that you think to yourself WTF? I almost felt that I was talking to a very bad shrink. Sometimes I wish that there was a support group for friends that are dealing with woman that are adopting. Just so they know what to say and not say. I love my friends to death and I wish they could understand how hard this is for me. I know that finding the right words to say can be hard. You don't always have to say something wise just being there is enough.
I took my mom today to brunch to celebrate her birthday. It was just the two of us since TJ is in Vancouver for work. We had a lovely chat but I soon realized that how much this process is affecting her. I guess I have never looked at it from her point of view till today. She asked me today if I have heard anything form the agency towards more of a time line when we will have our children. As I told her that there are many delays and it seems that time lines are getting longer and longer. That basically I had no answers for her. She looked down in her coffee mug and said that it just doens't seem fair. All she wants is to be a grandmother and could only imagine how hard this must be for me. I guess I forgot how much our families are looking forward to the arrival of our children just as much as we are. The waiting for them is just as long as it is for me. I wish that I had words of wisdom to comfort the wait for all of us....I just don't. All I can say that our dream of becoming parents will happen one way or another. I truly believe that.