Feeling sad.

I wish that I could feel excited and happy this time of year. I use to love decorating my house and shopping for those special little somethings for family and friends. I loved the smell of pine all through the house.

Now, I'm just sad. I hate feeling this way. I want the joy to be back in my life. I miss the excitement that we had when we started this whole process. All I want to do is stay in bed and wait for the holidays to be over.