People I encounter daily...

Beware of the Doghouse

Moms of multiples are freaks of nature

It's funny how strangers you meet can ask you such questions.

Funny how in a moment your emotions change.....

Today I woke up feeling that today was going to be a good day. I had the chance to hang out with my friends, go to the movies and even have supper with my wonderful husband. It was a good day. Then all of the sudden a Hallmark commercial changes everything. Funny how they can make you cry. Then I have to laugh at myself because I'm sitting here crying over a commercial. It didn't help that it was about Christmas and coming together with your children. Don't I wish. It's another year with just the two of us. How I look inside the spare room that is already set up for a little one to join our family and wonder when will I ever open that door to see our child sleeping in the bed. I find myself going in and rearranging the toys to find some sort of closeness to our child. Sometimes I think that I should put them all away till we get a referral, but a part of me needs them there to feel like I have some sort of connection with them. Some of you might find that strange...since it's more then likely that our child isn't even born yet. I bet those of you who are adopting know what I how I'm feeling. Sometimes I wish there was a monthly support group just so that I can feel normal. So you don't have to hide how you feel from everyone because they just don't get it. How I don't have to feel wrong for wanting a family now not later. It seems no matter how you try to explain how you feel to your closes friends they just don't "really" get it how you feel during this journey to your child. How you are excited that you are adopting but find the waiting sometimes hard to handle. I just have to remind myself that the it will be worth it all in the end.....I know there will be a day that I will look in that room and see our child fast a sleep.

Had to share this.

Ethiopian Orphans from Simon Scionka on Vimeo.

Can't sleep

For the last few weeks I've had a lot on my mind, which has made it hard to fall asleep at night. I know that I just have to let my mind relax but it's hard. Anyone out there know of any secrets of how to get to sleep during a restful time??? Any suggestions would help. I really need to have a full eight hours sleep with no interruptions.

Trying to get through this time of year.

It hard to believe that Christmas is coming on us again......and I'm still waiting. I just want to share this time of year with a family of our own. I have to keep putting a face on when meeting with family to just get through it all. How much I loved this time of year growing up....to only dread it now. I would love to just go away this time of year till it's all over. Is that too much to ask?

Another month goes by......

Reporters

I got a call last week from a reporter that I could have gone through the phone and slapped him in the face. I was so upset over this phone call that I phone my husband at work in tears. The reporter called and asked if I had adopted a child and I said no. Well he laughed and said well I found your blog on line and seen that you started the process in Dec 2008, and he thought we would have had a baby by now. I was so shocked by his lack of sensitivity that I was lost for words. When I finally could say something, I just told him that adoption take a long time. He then had the nerve to ask me if we would still be getting "one". I just told him that we are still on the waiting list. I then told him that I had to go.

I couldn't believe that someone would laugh over such a sensitive matter like this. I called TJ at work and he was so upset that he wanted to call them back to tell them off. I didn't remember the persons name which I feel was for the best. I can't believe that a so called reporter wouldn't read all the blog before calling.

If there any other reporters out there that come across this blog....read it before calling!