Still waiting.....to be a mom...

I have no real news to tell anyone about our adoption other then we are still waiting. It seems that we are getting long and longer waiting times. I was talking to my case worker and she tells me that the required ages that we are looking for are harder to find. We can other up the age or try to wait it out with the ages we have requested as long as we can. I'm not really sure what to do. I like many of you who are adopting just want to haver our children here with us now. I just want to me a mom. I don't think that is to much to ask.

Anniversary today.

It's hard to believe that it's been 5 years already! I can still picture how he looked on our wedding day. Sharp as a button standing there looking at me will all that love in his eyes. I was so nervous walking down the isle that I thought I was going to pass out, but once I got to him I was full of excitement. I was about to marry the man of my dreams.

Not in a million years would I ever think that being friends with his sister would lead me to my future husband. Our courtship wasn't the typical courtship that normal couples take. We knew each other for many years but didn't really KNOW each other. When TJ's dad was battling with cancer and his sister was recovering form a head injuring in moncton is when I finally got to meet TJ for who he really was. TJ is a man of great strength and courage.

Through all the tragedy that was going on with his family, whom I loved as my own for many years, was helping me deal with all my grief. I was loosing a man that I have admired all my life, who I've looked up to as a father and was honoured to have been thought of as a daughter. A friend, who now doesn't remember our friendship. TJ stood by my side while others faded away. Little did I know at the time I was helping him though this too.

We stuck by each other side for a year helping each other deal with loss of his father and the new relationship we will now both have with his sister. During this time we fell in love with each other, but not realizing the other felt the same way. As time went on we realized that we were in love with each other. I still remember the words coming out of his mouth.....I love you! It was the happiest moment in my life.....he felt the same way!!!!! It took me a while to have the courage to say them back to him, but once I did he already knew.

The day that he asked me to marry hime was on a magical night....Christmas! Some people say you shouldn't ask someone to marry you on Christmas. I'm glad that he didn't feel the same way. We decided that year to open our gifts to each other on that evening because we would be at home after a busy day of rushing around. I still remember it so clearly. I went up to take a shower to relax and get into my jammies. I came down stairs he had soft music playing and tree glowing. Little did I know what was going to happen next. I opened my gift of a pizza cutter, ice cream scooper, and wine charms....and there it was a diamond ring sparkling at me. At first I didn't see it till I move it to the side saying that they wine charms will be great for the deck next year. A shimmer of light hit the ring and I soon realized what was about to happen. First thing I said was if this is a joke it's not funny....lol He asked me to close my eyes and got a huge bouquet of flowers out from behind the couch and got on one knee. Meanwhile I'm thinking that I'm saying this in my head,"Oh my God he's going to ask me to marry him!", saying this over and over again in my head.....but actually saying it out loud! TJ grabs my hand and say yes Kelly I am! I opened my eyes and he says this poem:

First Kiss

You leaned over and you kissed me
I felt my knees go weak
You leaned over and you kissed me
I couldn't even speak
You leaned over and you kissed me
A touch so soft and tender
You leaned over and you kissed me
A kiss I could remember
You leaned over and you kissed me
You left me wanting more
You leaned over and you kissed me
My soul you did explore
You leaned over and you kissed me
My heart no longer full of pain
You leaned over and you kissed me
Our love will never strain
You leaned over and you kissed me
We can begin a new life if you just say yes....
Kelly, will you be my wife?

I screamed YES!!!!!

Home!

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Pictures of the house.

Getting scared of not getting siblings.....

I've been reading other blogs and seeing that people are changing request from siblings to a single child. That there has been a huge shortage of siblings in the past year. It's made me scared to think that I might have to change our plans on having 2 children. I have grown up in a family of one all my life and have always wanted my future children to have the joys of having a sibling to grow up with. I have my heart set on the fact knowing we will have two little ones running around here. I will hate to think that dream might not come true now. It seems that having t give up on dreams of having a natural child was hard enough to handle and now this! I just don't know if I will have the strenght to go through another loss.

All moved in!

We have finally got settled in our new spot. Takes a while to get use to all the space now. We were living in about 800 sq feet and now are in a house that is about 2000 sq feet. We still come home and ask each other "Where are you?"....lol I promise to get some photo's up soon. We are just trying to work out on what to put on the walls still and once that happens I will post a few pictures.

Moving Update!!!!

It looks like we can move in a few days earlier! It looks like we are allowed to start moving in the weekend and then we are to sign off on the house on Tuedsay!!!!! Yeah!